My ....

In this little life i have lived
I have come to realize in a short time
that trouble is never far away from me
As i struggle each day, slowly and painfully
with tears streaming down from my eyes
and my Heart heavy than the word gravity
there are days, when i prayed the Father
that he might end my life before the sun
for it maybe be an end to my suffering

Yet my prayers go as the years go by unanswered
i have seen many evil-deeds and partaken of some
i have done things untold, for my body alone
i say this, I do what i do for my own soul



to be continued....

..... you shine....

It's on most times not strange
to find out that i always wonder
how possible that time seems to fly
when i am with you, i keep smiling
and my pain vanishes with the wind
for in you there is a better hope
and happiness for tomorrow's world
with love and grace, you Shine

You brought Sunshine into my quiet Heart
and there is a Silver lining in my clouds
I have been struck by your Ravishing style
and your express pattern has caught my eye
Dance with me, all the days of my small life
and let thy Rivers always be round about me
as the waters over the sea, so are you over me
drenched in the everlasting love of yours !!!

A part of......L

What is wrong with my mind
why should i feel this way
oh, my pitiful gentle soul
thy end seems to draw close
and thy fountains dry up

What have i done to myself
why have i lead my heart
into the temptation of my soul
and now i begin to loose strength
in this Fragrance of my life; You

What shall be done unto I?
why should i let my soul weary
for i should have known before
that there can be only two ends
one with I and the other with him

Terrible, terrible, I try not to cry
for my heart is growing heavy
and my eyes swollen with tears
I bow my Head in grief wondering
if i can ever be her first choice?

The stars in the sky shine down
and the rivers flow into the sea
it is never heard of Ocean overflow
I'll try to keep Heart this strong
that it may never crack and break

I have lead myself into the Pit
and have turned from my logical ways
and let my heart over rule, my judgment
now i pay dearly for my emotional sins
and cry tears as that of a woman

Ah! I should have known before now
that the gods may not be pleased
for i broke every rule that i know
and took a dive in unknown waters
just for the selfishness of my Heart

I wish she would be mine forever
to keep and cherish, in love and pain
but if she would never be mine
then i have no choice but let her go
that she may find Joy and Happiness

My Emotion to Love!!

Oh My God!! why should i feel this way
I; the Lion, the strong and ever fearful
fall like a shooting star in the night sky

I have caged my Heart and lost the key
but here she comes with her gentility
and i begin to melt like wax before fire

I hate myself whenever i feel this way
and try to step out of the boundaries
of that strange word called Emotions

Emotions are matters of our sweet Heart
and can tear our souls in a million shreds
I wish i knew how to guide mine right now

for i see it running in that strange path
yet i ask myself, should i put my breaks
That my Heart may rejoice and not broken

I am trapped in her arms like the octopus
a fish on a hook, i struggle to break free
what now; shall i do to free my soul

for in pains i take my first step to love
that which i swore never again to do
I find myself opening my Heart unto it

who shall save me, from her deadly poison
that i might live strong and never to die
I need help, please have pity on my SOUL.

Is it true?

How do I survive in a very strong and tough world?
With nothing to hold in my pocket called money
I wish I know what to do right now and save my heart
Every time I fight within my heart and my soul looses
And I am lost for sleep in many days that follow
I hope that one day I would break the circle of this bound

Now I look back at how I got my natural ass this far here
Wondering if it was by natures own doing natural selection
Or some kind of other forces that I don’t know if they exist
I wake up every morning in a state that; today would shine
sometimes the sun is up and I still don’t see the shine of the day
I look up at the stars and speculate if this is how it was planned

I look around me and see faces that sometimes I never know
I wonder as to the reasons as to why I live this type of life!
I am told that I am stranger than human and my blood isn’t red
But when I speak I realize that I have a different kind of accent
And the way that I analyze things, nobody seems to understand
No matter how hard I try to explain to the people around me
They seem not to be able to comprehend all the things I utter
And most times I keep wondering if I am in the right place
For how can the people I think are close to me cannot observe?
All the things that I see, when they are plainly written all over
They say that I have a dream that belongs only to the great gods
And that I must have stolen some of the ideas of the immortal
And ran all the way to earth to see if I could execute those thoughts
I ask you now, would you look and tell me if this is true or not?



8th August, 2009

What are our dreams

In my whole Life, I have had this Dream !!!!!
yet, i do not understand how to go about it..
I have looked for different methods and ways
that i might be able to live in this land
but all i can see are the perfect opposite

All these years, i have tried with all i know
still i see no solution in sight for now....
because i still hope that there would be one
some day and some how, i might stumble on it
but i pray that its not too late by then ....

I look out of my window and hope for the Rain
to fall on i here in the dry scotching heat
oh! can i call on the Spirits that controls'
to show me the right path i which i need go
that I might Lead my People to Grace Land !!!

This dream that i carry in me; for all my Life
is not my burden alone to bear but with you...
do not look at it that i alone can make through
for I am nothing but Human tissues of Flesh and
a Spirit is strong but a body that is falling

I have seen strange things happen in Life
and i know that i am a product of one of such
that's why i believe in the un-believe-able
I have seen the People and i Know their Pains
come; that we might make this dream a reality

This feeling .....

This feeling I find inside of me
Is crazy and stupid, but yet very true
How can I then feel this way about you
What, have you done unto my holy mind
That now, its has you in almost every thought
This I need to ask of you, who are you?
And can I ever become your dream man?
I ask you these questions
That I might know if I walk rightly
And not get my gentle fragile heart
Shattered into a zillion unpicked pieces
Because it might lead my black heir
To mother Earth for an early grave

You are wonderful, elegant and good looking
But what drives my lonely heart in love
Are the words that comes from inside of you
Your presentation style, outspoken and open minded
You are an independent woman who knows
That all she wants, comes out from in her
And life is a wonderful place to be
If only you can paint the good pictures of the Earth.


3rd August 2008

To all who needs help!

This is dedicated to those who need help
From all the pains that they have ever been through
In all they have ever been, through the rainy days
In thick and thin, the bad and ugly side of their lives
This is just to let you know that I see you in a better way
And not the hopeless situation that you have found yourself in
The storm I am told wont last for long, buts after effect does
But that’s the time that we have to be strong from inside
Because we now have the chance to re-make the wrong things right
And help those who have no hope in a brighter and better tomorrow
It’s hard to imagine the goodness of life when one is at the bottom of the ladder of life
In what ever situation of life, you need to be strong and know that
You have got me to hold you high in the time of pains and tears
Imagine me been that voice you need to hear at night
I know that, with all the effects of life that you have seen
It’s really hard to believe if you can ever be free
It’s not just about what you imagine, but you have to be the strong
To help those who are beyond the hope of the hopeless
I would be honest with you; it’s hard to trust in what I say
When the things around you don’t seem to show any sign of improvement
It’s really hard to be in the world where nobody really cares if you die or not
It would never stop being hard to see, as we all struggle with our inner man
But imagine yourself just being free from all the burdens you carry
And being strong even when you are shown no love from the hood
Yet you trust in yourself to be able to pull through in faith
I dedicated this to people like me, who have been through all the pains of live
In those moments when its seems that our world has crashed and
The fountains of waters stopped with no one to turn to for help, but us
I feel that pain you go through just as you stare at the clouds hoping for answers


29th Mar. 2009.

What am I?

when i think about all the things that you have done for me
it leaves me wondering why you love me this so much
i have nothing that i can offer to you and this you know
that there is nothing in me but just only the name i have
my name, is as of one that has not even been given birth to
for no one knows that i even exist save those close to me
yet in all this my today which is unstable as the wind
you love and cherish me as if i am the brightest star!

it is a wonderful privilege to know that i am loved by you,
yet it breaks my heart to see me cause you so much pain
i wish i could take all your pains and tears away
but i cant, for reasons i have tried in vain to understand
and questions that seem to elude all forms of answers
run through my head, spinning the act of normalcy away
why have i been made this way? to cause you pains and joy
i do not know what i am to you, A blessing or a curse?